Things I'm thinking and feeling:
- I really don't "blog" all that much. I record, I guess, and that's sort of a "web log," but I really don't expose much of my innermost feelings - it's like observations with a mirror in the way. I've always been that way when I write. Always.
- Today I'm going to try something different.
- I feel horribly sad today. Not really empty, not really morose, just... not even tired, but mournful, and I don't even really know what it is I'm mourning. Maybe it's memory, all the memories I feel like I could have had but don't, maybe it's the memories I do have but shouldn't. Maybe I'm mourning the fact that I don't know if I'm what I should be. But today, Me, I'm down. I'm not feeling bad, I'm just down.
- I finally fixed some problems with my Wordpress installation. When I upgraded to Ubuntu 18.04 on my server, apparently some PHP plugins didn't get installed/migrated/somethinged - I went to a page on installing the LEMP stack on Ubuntu, installed the system dependencies, and lo and behold, things started working better again. Annoying, because this stuff's been broken for a long time. Now if Wordpress would only track the same hits that I see in access logs...
- After a long dry spell, I've been writing poetry again. This is a good thing, but as usual my poetry is inspired by my mood, which is not a good thing. Oh, well. Maybe some of it will be worth publishing.